predictable to say, predictable to feel maybe but at some point i stopped living in dublin and started living in dublin you know? i think that means i can keep living in dublin but only sort of because it's so damn special here most of the time, it's really shitty sometimes but then it's not anymore. i feel like at some point i stopped making videos, making movies and just started making movies in a similar way. just not so much self-consciousness i mean. that happens to me a lot with movies and not as much with making other things. i get worried about going back home if i don't make movies as much, that wouldn't be ok. i am not living when i am not making movies but not in a compulsive way. i love the friends i have made here so much and that is not just because i finally told joe about the blog and now i am crying at the kitchen table, it was so nice when michael west handed me a glass of wine, and he said 'i'm michael,' and i looked down at the short glass in his hand like i saw it as an insert, i felt slightly insane, i've been editing for weeks, he'd shown such skill in pouring it. his posture is excellent. i have gained some interests here including editing, theatrical things - but not the theatre itself really at all - barbeque

but the blog'll continue and all

for john m

commercials help me realize how invested i am in drama

skintone and light

from winy maas

warpvision cont

the whole 'let's make a sandwich!' sequence of gaga telephone looks like an updated warp vision promo from late 8os

on friday i dreamt about pipo. i went back to oberlin and i saw him and we hugged three times and he said i really hurt his feelings by assuming he was dismayed with me and i felt like a different person and he forgave me and i was like a better person, with a pony tail, but it panicked me, it wasn't me, and i had to go walk into london to get this famous blonde guy and his girlfriend from the airport. i had made some photographs earlier that day with my new membership.

on saturday night i dreamt that my dad and i were in paris and we were on the metro but the metro was like these little individual seats that were on the ground and moved freely and you had to tell them where you wanted to go but like i guess how you tell a horse you want to stop and go and i couldnt get off mine and my dad was trying to explain it to me and walk beside me and this older woman with straight white hair smiled at me, it was comforting but i kept riding along and that was strange to be sitting / riding in this crowd of people

last night i dreamt i was driving in the ocean / swimming in the forest and i went to see avery and said let's go shopping! and we were on our way through the forest but then i remembered i had told both my sister and john that i would meet them at 3 15 pm somewhere and it was 3 22 but it was like the worst thing in the world, avery was trying to hide how disgusted she was i could do such a thing and

today my music video professor said 'look at the art world for inspiration, look at whats going on in art. look also at art reference books.'

i dont like working independently and i dont feel that great anymore about there being nothing original since i dont feel original at ripping things off. even taxidermy i had seen before like that.

muzzy tribute

- Fall Hard (Passion Pit Summertime Radio Remix)

- Fall Hard (Passion Pit Summertime Radio Remix)

A Hawk And A Hacksaw - Kertesz

A Hawk And A Hacksaw - Kertesz

Anti-Pop Consortium - Get Lite (Tobacco Remix)

last night i had a dream that my family came and i had to make a music video with them, everyone's family was here and all the families had to make a video. and so my family said we dont know where to begin - what about the theater ? at first i thought, gee great, the theater. and then i felt it was deeply wrong

The horrors - Sheena is a Parasite
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sheena's so much cooler than them

yesterday i saw colin farrel

old times

belfast exposed

http://www.belfastexposed.org/archive/index.php

Cibo Matto - Sugar Water
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Miscarried justice often provides the vehicle for emotionally wrenching drama and histrionic fireworks, and such is the case in spades with "In the Name of the Father."

Tricky - For Real!!!!
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too many films for real
directed by stephane sednaoui

thanks to jane h.

as my love of chris cunningham nears obsession

might make final project for this irish band

''the style of a thought is its movement''

Major Lazer "Keep it Going Louder" from Eric Wareheim on Vimeo.

thanks to char buck

that genre like bat for lashes of witty / once creepy made clever. we are shooting this song this weekend, where i hunt a werewolf with a gun

corrections online

from i heart photography i found the florida department of corrections runs a website with portrait images and pretty much all information on inmates. other dept of corrections websites have information, but i've never seen one with portraits and all the detail they have here :

http://www.dc.state.fl.us/activeinmates/search.asp

it's weird

Duran Duran - Hungry Like The Wolf
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brothers, a film by jim sheridan

last weekend i saw brothers at the irish film institute. the ifi is my neighborhood cinema!
WHATEVER. brothers is a film set in the united states. it is made by jim sheridan, an irish director of 'my left foot' fame. later, i saw 'my left foot.' it was really interesting. jim sheridan also made the 50 cent movie. to speculate why? is not funny, don't try it. at 'brothers,' i cried a lot. even with the war thing on america makes me hysterrical in such its unique way! sometimes i wonder about racoons. i bought some shoes i wasnt sure about to try to feel better, i guess i should return them, they're property of dublin. they're italian. dublin's really good, though. i've watched all the recent films of ryan reynolds and i am in marketing and i just keep going to the watercolors at the national gallery.

irish malls

today two of my kind actors and friends and i were escorted out of the mall bc i was shooting there, and i think they thought we were responsible for shutting down the escalator. it made me feel violent! ej (one of the two) said she had to do something to restore her faith in this city. i have very little footage for the assignment due tomorrow. we decided if we were in new york, the garda
there are many malls here in dublin

i wonder if that means i'm supposed to be teaching myself about postmodernism, but not like dave eggers at all except for how he was on the real world

this video's a little disappointing

today

today in class my music video professor asked if everyone had heard about postmodernism. that was really how he put it. and no one reacted / no one said yea and i just nodded my head! and he said ok give me two sentences to define postmodernism please cubby. i warn always have a two sentence definition of postmodernism in your bad pocket. i guess teaching music videos is teaching postmodernism.




maybe writing this blog isn't helping

bat for lashes, what's a girl to do

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QYQEnwtESnE

juvenile, get ya hustle on

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&VideoID=4089166


crack charity katrina rescue

what do i shoooot

futbol

Erm...da, moral sam... bilo je i vrijeme...

Nikad prikladnije nego nakon gledanja veličanstvene pobjede 2-4 nad Evertonom u gostima, nakon vodstva Evertona još u 50. minuti 2-0...

Kao što rekoh Čezu, to je klub koji voliš jer nikad ne odustaju, koji
grizu do kraja, za koji i kad gube koliko god, uvijek vjeruješ da se mogu
vratiti!!!!

By the way čelzi je remizral tak da je 3 kola prije kraja + 5 za United...
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!

A sad na izradu topica...ahhhh

some voices inside my mind

"he predicted about barack obama and also 9/11" of course !

my roommates just asked each other if we are officially in great britain right now and couldn't decide

& to that i say ooooojeaaaaajoozsomzsalacologne

then also

this 1

cafetierre jack yeats, a new day, etc

today we went to the national gallery. it's free and we saw jack yeats colletion and also the turner watercolors. and also tiny tiny tiny watercolor portraits of people from the time people wore wigs, on ivory pendants, and also silouhettes. apparently silhouettes were commonly used for portraits of middle class families, since they were cheap, until photographs replaced them mm photography dominates and is useless and nowhere
then mom bought me a WATERCOLOR SET. ---- I am so excited since i remembere dthat dream i had freshman year of college where somebody like emreson said 'mothing is new and all the new stories are just revised versions of old stories. like everything in shakespeare' and so he daod you should just remake old rings and , i became thrilled sicne i would never need tivagwn have a new idea, so i will make redos of elton john videos and stuff ---- we ate at the mermaid cafe dinner, the waier/man there was into theatre and he said it's qite nice about ireland that everyone calls the euro different things here, like pounds, quid, dollars. he said it's quite nice about that, and seemed to really like it. well, i really liked him. he goes to new york every 18 months or so but just to see shows. maybe it's beacuse he really likes shows and maybe it's because dubin is so small.


the city i am in now hich i don't think is dublin is like if you made a microkazim european city dollhouse and turned it flat, and the big fancy depatment store has just a few dollsize purses and a few high heels. and american apparel is creeping around the corner. and the play food is arugula, tiger prawns and bacon and herb mash and panin on the menu but that never materializes. the neighborhood around the dollhouse is expanding a some churches that actually aren;t churches inside, they're the toursim bureau -- and a river liffey and buys stations, with people and no buses. it's all gray outside, the gray light permeates all colors. and the last sip of kir so saccharine! and like cranberry liquer in terschelling, and i think it's going to be ok if i remember it's going to be. i saw fishamble street, its the best street in the city , is it bad to own the dollhouse

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